Arose For Audrey (Age Old Suite)

In 2013, I attended six sessions of therapy, whereby I was encouraged to rewire my mind from scratch. Arose For Audrey is a personal thank you to the lady who set the wheels in motion for my recovery. Featured art is by Guilherme Gomes.

Listen to Arose For Audrey by Richard Charles Stevens (Age Old Suite)

Listen to Age Of Loneliness (Carly’s Song) by Enigma

Thank you dear Audrey
For planting the seed
As I live and I breathe
With both heart and mind freed
Thank you sweet Audrey
For planting the seed
That conceived the late making of me
(Release)
.
Cast your mind back
To mid twenty thirteen
And please do take a bow
In the here and the now
As I recall a vow and a deed
.
(Release)
.
Had thrown in the towel
To lessen the bleed
Was all out of nouns
To express my unease
The antidepressants were clearly not working
Seemed to be lean on fresh teardrops for jerking
Challenges deemed to be loss leaders for the shirking
Pains inflamed and entertaining habit for recurring
Howbeit my keen to dig deep was unerring
And thus I leaned in
Once the hand began turning
(Release)
.
One hour
My window
To all of me
Cautiously guarded for so many ferried moons
.
(Release)
.
Regarded as surplus to further requirement
Deferred to more permanent tomb
.
(Release)
.
The room
Of pallid hue
Appeared long ravaged of a view
While hardly lavish
I felt charmed
To feel no sway to raise alarm
Your face relayed a state of calm
Remembered to this day
For it remains the safe place I regained my stance
(Release)
.
All childhood recollections
Had been tainted to this juncture
Gone was any longing sense of wonder
(Release)
Memories of incandescent dawns were torn asunder
While numb to joys a boy my age should feel
.
Suddenly revealed
Some way less sullen a remembrance
Out of body I embodied more belonging evidence
Braving fierce waves
I embraced all native elements
Childlike again
Ascertained its great relevance
Knew well in fact
To hell and back
Was bound to impart scars
Yet often it’s the gravest tracks
That lead us back to chance
.
Mine was greatest legwork
Such could nary be denied
Yet every word I spoke
You skipped rope gaily by my side
Every now and then
We’d pause
To watch the steep falls glisten
(Release)
And in this moment Audrey dear
I never feared you’d brought me here
To hear me when sincerely you could listen
.
(Glisten)
For all unceasing wisdom
You entreated me to make my own decisions and provisions
With the vision I had gleaned
Weaned me from the teat
With an obscene degree of self belief
Mental health had been all catch
Until you placed tabs on the act of
.
Release
.
Glisten
Release
Glisten
Release
Glisten
Release

Thank you sweet Audrey
For guiding me back
To the most exact vapours of me
(Glisten)
(Release)
Cast your mind back
To mid twenty thirteen
When you laid the famed tracks
To the making of me
.
Released
.