Caliginous (Kinetic Suite)

Caliginous has been published in All of Me Vol. IV, courtesy of Shadow Spark Publishing.

Listen to Caliginous by Richard Charles Stevens (Kinetic Suite)

Listen to Kinetic by Dser

venturing affray just to hustle the limits
venturing affray just to hustle the limits
venturing affray just to hustle the limits
i must give away
it feels fucking exquisite
.
every sense heightened
every ligament ablaze
every major vein is scintillant
yet in the shadows i remain
i desire the taste of noir
that comes from braving abattoirs
to teach the dark a thing or two
of what my caliginous habits are
.
(triggered and back to)
(triggered and back to)
triggered
and back to oblivion
bound by obsidian wraiths
holding firmly in place
within stygian caves
where they binge on felled braves
.
(doom fated)
(doom fated)
doom fated crack house
in hangouts
(cooped up then)
cooped up then chewed up
and spat out
(too late to)
too late to back out
i blackout
thus revealing more intimate shade
.
every sense
every sense
.
every sense heightened
every ligament ablaze
every major vein is scintillant
yet in the shadows i remain
i desire the taste of noir
that comes from braving abattoirs
to teach the dark a thing or two
of what my caliginous habits are
.
venturing affray just to hustle the limits
(hustle the limits)
i must give away
it feels fucking exquisite
(fucking exquisite)
.
hustle the limits
hustle
hustle
hustle
hustle
.
used to downright dread the change of scenery
that anyone would wander out of range seemed plain obscene to me
misery loves company
not that these words encouraged me
but if i wished to realign then i would need to be prepared to feed meat to the grinder
dare to spend time with the other me
clench tight
ride the red tide to recovery
..
get primal and bleed from the eyes if required
to release that within from its bind
(leap in)
(leap in)
leap in blind
embrace the flame
reclaim the original fire
(leap in)
(leap in)
(leap in)
(leap in)
(leap)
(leap)
(leap in)
should we live as we learn
then i would sooner burn than wait my turn to die
thus fell into the deepest trance my blackened eyes could testify
sat back on my onyx perch
observed the innate knack for purging
verging on the brink
quite simply
death defying
verging on the brink
quite simply
death defying
.
every sense heightened
every ligament ablaze
every major vein is scintillant
yet in the shadows i remain
i desire the taste of noir
that comes from braving abattoirs
to teach the dark a thing or two
of what my caliginous habits are
(hustle)
(hustle)
(hustle)
(hustle)
.
venturing affray just to hustle the limits
(hustle the limits)
venturing affray just to hustle the limits
(hustle the limits)
venturing affray just to hustle the limits
(hustle)
(hustle)
i must give away
it feels fucking exquisite
.
there used to be a time when i was too afraid to die to live
blind from what my eyes forbid
no soul to take
not mine to give
too tired for ifs and buts and maybes
nothing left inclined to faze me
needed to go bat shit crazy
act akin to cat with rabies
use this as the basis for an underway recovery
(hustle)
(hustle)
feel the rage to name and shame the other me
.
screw inertia
wasn’t working
screw inertia
wasn’t working
.
clench tight
ride the red tide to recovery
(screw inertia)
clench tight
ride the red tide to recovery
(hustle)
(hustle)
(screw inertia)
clench tight
ride the red tide to recovery
(hustle)
(hustle)
(hustle)
(hustle)
.
screw inertia
wasn’t working
fears kill minds when tears stop jerking
boys don’t cry
or that’s the rule of those who waste entire lives smirking
i was naked to the bones
and though i didn’t know for certain
had to go for broke to find the placebo for all the hurting
.
.
venturing affray just to hustle the limits
(hustle)
(hustle)
venturing affray just to hustle the limits
(hustle)
(hustle)
venturing affray just to hustle the limits
(hustle)
(hustle)
i must give away
it feels fucking exquisite
.
every sense heightened
every ligament ablaze
every major vein is scintillant
yet in the shadows i remain
i desire the taste of noir
that comes from braving abattoirs
to teach the dark a thing or two
of what my caliginous habits are
.
every sense heightened
every ligament ablaze
every major vein is scintillant
and every shadow knows its place
i desire the break of day
that comes from chasing night away
to teach the dark a thing or two
of the art of caliginous shadow play
.
(shadow play)
(shadow play)
(shadow)
(shadow)
(shadow play)
(shadow)
(shadow)
(shadow)
(shadow)
(shadow play)
(shadow play)
.
(hustle)
(hustle)
.